Easter...

Lets begin with work...ohh work.

It's starting to get pretty warm and remember they call me"hotboy Jimmy" so I'm sweating like a slave.

Finally a ray of sunshine in this dark world, not only did my sis finally get an interview but it seems that she may have a job!

Memphis Boys and Girls Club...I dont think she'll be making as much as she was at the other place, and its in the middle of North Memphis so its a lot closer and not all those "uppity"a** people to worry about.

TSA (airport security) finally got back with me, come to find out my socal security number they had on record was wrong.

So I'm set for testing at the end of the month...

And this morning I check the account...$2500 was sitin in there!

Unc Sammy finally gave me the LAST of my money he owes me.

So I'm caught up on bills and set to make that move or make that trip!!!

I decided it was gonna be either or because I'm still getting a bad vibe on this morgage refinance that the mother unit just did...plus she buying up all these DVD's for like $40 a pop she 's gonna drop the ball on some bill real soon...

...then there's my brother who goes to court tommorrow.

Keep ur fingers crossed and ur prayer line on standby.

I've been running all weekend just in case that 1st Sgt pulls a 180 and comes up with a PT schedual.

But I think he's gonna stand firm on the "call it a diagnostic" if u fail the PT Test.

(for those of u who dont have any ideal what I'm talking about in the military u have to be evaluated out ur physical fitness every six months)

But the senior NCO's (Staff Sgt or higher) in the unit are gonna fight it; doesn't make a damn difference to me because I came from the type of place where they were always losing ur scores so u had to take the test two or three times in six months anyway!

At like 2am on sunday my phone wakes me!

F**kin Phyillis is messaging me, I wrote her that I was asleep...

..at 2 in the morning this chick wants to have a message conference tellin me all her business(note: I hadnt heard from her after I had a talk with her reguarding that there is no "getting hooked up" for me and her...two weeks ago).

So after about two messages I just quit writing.

I don't get it she had a nice guy, 3 kids by the guy and been with the SAME guy for seven years!

Boy is my cousin gonna get it when I see him!!!

Sunday morning they showed Jesus Of Nazurithine(spell) I hadn't seen that movie since I was like six.

For the first time I noticed Sidney Portiei was a slave in the movie.

Wow!

 

Another Episode...

Well the work week was interesting for once we have enough people to run the belt smoothly and my super starts letting people off a the beginning of the shift, sending people to other belts...etc.

I started running big time this week as well and went to storage looking through boxes for my parts to my other computer...

And found the memorandum that could have kept me in germany...MY ORDERS FOR MY RANK OF CORPORAL.

Thats right the undeniable proof I needed was in a box...

Then I thought by the time I got done with fight the chain of command for a slot to stay in germany, then going to the promotion board...

Didn't matter now, but I did fax a copy of it to my NG unit.

 

Have u ever been angry enough at another persons actions to destroy that person on a cellular level, I'm speaking destroying atoms and s**t.

But I should let the police handle the problem but they have to be called...

We celebrated my sis's b-day at the Texas Outback in Southhaven. Thats close to where Mario lives...

Idiot, my mother caught the bill almost a hundred dollars!

My bro went with us and had a fit about the bill too, he just knows she's gonna complain about it later.

But when we got home she went off about dishes and stuff, said she was gonna make a weekly schedual and everyone will comply...

...should have done that in the first place instead of the wash what u use thing!

Because she cooks and then decides she's too TIRED to wash her own dishes, then my bro won't wash at all, me and my sister will probally end up with the most days anyway.

But I made sure to suggest putting the washing of towels for the house on schedual as well...she didn't hear that part.

I made it out with the O to the local wrestling match, a woman who is married to one of the wrestlers went into labor!

O got into it with one of the wrestlers managers' right in the middle of one of the matches, he tells me go along with it and be creative.

So when he got to yelling at the to of his lungs with him...I grabbed a chair and just stood there behind him, the people in the crowd went CRAZY!

The manager ran off around the ring and we sat down.

At the end of the matches the owner of the local wrestling asked him to start wrestling and he asked me to be his manager...should I?

 

 

New Entry time...

First my announcement to happiness...

I'm still gonna do it, I know, I know but I can't get her out of my head.

So my heart is going back into a box till she wants me to mail it to her

National Guard drill, the room purchase and stay overnight was perfect.

I just reserved it Friday after I got off work for $50 a night...

Drove to the Unit and did what I had to do there.

We were released by 5pm Saturday and I checked into my room.

I had forgotten how nice it is to be in solarity, I mean living with my fam can be nerve racking at times.

When I was in the Army I almost always had a room in the B's(barracks) without roommate; just being able to get up and take a shower and there was hot water...

Bout passed out.

Even now I'm in my sister's room using the computer, my brother is watching Simpsons behind me and my mother is constantly in and out of the room(Nosey Virus).

Oh yeah my sis is at work: thats the only reason my entry is on time...

And my uncle just walked in wantin in on the internet.

Work...this week was painful!

Everyons is going on vacation, so those of us who are under a year are sucking!

My sis is still trying to make it her life mission to find someone who works with me.

I keep trying to tell her that there are FED EX facilities all over Memphis and just because so cat comes in the store and says he works at one don't go releasing info on my job.

Thats how people have been going/leaving work and next thing they know their car is gone and they are on the ground twiching.

She has to remember I work in the early mornings, and she could be telling the local robber my flight plan!

An old girl I went to chruch with go my cell# from my cousin...Note: dropkick him in the throat next time he is in town.

A perfect example of f*cked up priorities:

It was the Fam chruch we grew up in it.She had a crush on me for years, we decided to talk...this was 11 years ago.

I broke it off...she was too active and I didn't feel comfortable with it; I was #2 of 6 males at the time.

My cousin(Tony) lives in Florida...he just recently breifed this chick I was back in Memphis.

She's got three little ones, luckily by the same guy...

Yep he's on standby providing for her AND the kids and the first thing she wants to do is go out and stuff with me!

And after she told him this he still gives her the number...

She sends me a message at 1 in the morning!

From a club somewhere in Downtown Memphis on a wednsday...

If I hadn't got back so late today because she goes to school during the week I would be definatly fixing her issue and letting her know to get her priorities on track.

And my cousin gets a nasty call tommorrow!

 

Sick, sick, sick all weekend...

Yep I had a very fierce cold so in I stayed.

The wildest thing was O called and argued me down about the gun laws of the state AGAIN!

I thought that we all had a lesson to learn from my brother breif run in with jailtime.

The police aren't playing games...if u do something illegal u will get caught and will serve the consiquenses!

He wants me to go to the gun range with him but that means transporting my unregistered handgun in his car...did I mention that is illegal?

He brought up the fact that he has my back, he'll tell them we are going to the range and that the gun is his.

Well that fine unless the police decide to take the time to check into it...which they will!

Gun control is a serious thing right now and they will lock you up real quick over it.

With the murder rate so high...

My trip and moving out may be put on hold, my mother is finally accepting the fact that she is paying too much now for this house so she needs help.

My sis is tied down to one job and her and my mother are into it.

Because my sis still has priority issues; I try to get her to accept advice but its hard.

Even now she's searching the house for her resent bill she got in the mail.

Organization wasn't a class in college I guess...

Middle of the week..really late!!

Ahh Monday I slept and relaxed, till time to take my bro to the Courtroom...

Thought it was going to be another in by 9 out by 10 morning.

He was still in the courtroom when I got through the weapons search and something didnt seem right so I went in and sat.

Just as I sat he was just being seen...the judge said something to him let the gavel hit the desk, AND THEY PUT HANDCUFFS ON MY BROTHER!!!

The Attorney pack his breifcase and started toward the exit!

Cut that sneeky someb*tch off in the hall out side the courtroom...

...he tells me the judge gave his probation case to another judge in another division...A STRICTER ONE!!!

When I asked why he said it was some change in the laws of the state on probation and that my bro had to spend some time in jail.

What a system!

Here we have people killing their wives over a divorce and not to mention the murder count in memphis was one of the highest in the country before the NYC New Years Ball was even down the pole good...

But send a 27 year old man to jail for a dime bag of green leaf!

Not my Bro and not on my watch!

Went to the Bondsman and posted bail A>S>A>P!

My sis did help the situation, I call her and let her know the basics of what happened...

The first thing I tell her is dont tell my mother anything!

Craig want to be the one to talk to her and explain what happened, the only thing I need from her is to get ready to sign some papers because two people have to sign for the Bailbond.

First she starts telling me,"I knew it, he failed a pisstest didn't he"?

So once I get her to get her mind off the things she should be concerned about I tell her I'm on my way to pick her up and we will go do da damn thang!

By the time it takes me to get from downtown Memphis to my house....she had called my mother anyway!

My mother in all her wisdom who was at work was talking to everybody she knew who "think" they know about the law and was talking to the store manager about BORROWING money for bail!!!

So I took the phone from my sis the "genius" and calmed my mother down...I had the situation under control.

She tried to get on me why me and my bro decide to leave her in the dark, like we had a dark secrect from her and were 12 and 13 years old.

I reminded her of her actions to that point:

1. Listened to a source that didnt have all the facts(my sister).

2. Involved people other than family (then she will wonder later on why she are cursing ou these same people next week about minding their business).

3. Told my brother's employers about his problems with the law.

All the "no-no's" of the Bonner Family.

I told her I got this and to stay out of it....

But my brother was out the same day....

And I still pulled off going to Smackdown/Raw at the FED EX Forum.

MICKY JAMES IS A GODDESS!!!!

Quiet and busy weekend...

It's the weekend before the biggest event of the spring...the 50 Anniversary of my Grandparents.

Got off work Friday Morning and rolled out to the Gun Range to set up for my concelment class...

O went with me,then we went and picked up his Income Tax check...FINALLY!

Well remember when he had been filing his so called daughter on his Tax return for the last three years so legally this is the last year he can file her.

Due to the DNA test proving that the baby wasnt his happening so late last year...but!

What do you think that dumb girl went and did?

YEP she went and tried to file the girl, instant audit.

But because O filed too he had to wait until the IRS did their Investigation.

Pissed off my mother though because he went to buy an new pistol...

Don't worry she has selective memory, he also paid off the store where he works and got some work done on his truck.

But she only remembers the pistol...

Saturday morning, Hot spring Trip for the mother...she came back Sunday night!

So for the next week she will be here driving myself and the rest of my sibiling crazy...

I planned on it...

I'm busy all this week, first I'm working and running every morning.

Then Wednsday and Thursday afternoon my concelied weapon class.

Friday I have too drive to Milllinton, TN to pick up my suit for the big event.

I'm also gonna stay in Sgt Ellis' a** about my bonus, need it before April because I've already set up to take a weekend off for my German Operation.

I noticed it is cheaper to but your ticket when closer to the dates u want to fly.

Still on the waiting list for the apartment, if I dont get one there by April I will look for some where else whe I dont have to wait and use the rest of the bonus to buy Furniture.

My sis had a hard week...she is no longer working two jobs right now.

Her problem is that she was too open with some of the customers there, and she had told them of a problem she was having at her other job...the one at the grocery store. A MONTH AGO!!!

Alright all of u have to realize something about my sister she has moments where we think she might have ate paint chips.

She wasnt paying attention to her cash pan and she put $100 worth of 20 dolllar bills in her One dollar bills.

My mother and the rest of the people picked on her about so bad she missread it as the were accusing her of stealing...and guess who was the last to know.

By the time I found out she was already home from work...early.

She called her supervisor at the gym and told her she needed to be excused from work because she couldn't stop crying!

Her she is my sis college degree in Health and Human Performance,Sports Management.

The next day she went to talk to her super and they told here to turn in her key and that if she wanted to stay with the gym she would have to begin where it was she started in the first place...housekeeping.

Cleaning bathrooms and washing towels...it took a whole day for them to pass judgement and bring another person in.

She couldnt even fight it because her leaving work like that showed the gym head that she couldn't handel stressful situations.

Or thats part of the story...

Next...

Well my supervisor has his way now.

I am the spliter of the belt's load now and Mike is working on another belt altogether.

I warned him, so I don't feel gulity about it...

...but a man gonna do what he feels he has to.

Now I just have to deal with the work load, because without the other guys at the top with me I would be all f**ked up every night.

Friday night I went to the wrestling with O, wow what a night... 

I met Queen Renee and her sister, her sister is almost 6 feet.

I didn't even know O knew them, and worst yet he had been talkin to them about me!!!

This fool trying to get in anyway he can, but the crowns are selling so he's happy.

A shadow from my past came out and was staring me in the face out there too.

Before I went in the army during my more active days

It was a girl I went to church with she used to do the whole chase me around the place and hit me...we were kids man!

She was sitting in front of me in the arena, talk about unconfortable...her that is.

We got together for a meeting or two but broke it off whe I went to GA.

Well she went through the whole rundown of my whereabouts for the last few years.

Then she said I should come by he grandmother's house and see her sometime

Call me evil if you want but the chances of me going anywhere near her are slim to nada...

One of the reasons I left her alone was because I need someone who is has more initative, I just get the feeling she is after the free ride so to speak.

And right now I dont have the time to take to see if thats the case.

Or to explain my actions, she hadn't seen me in almost 10 and she was doing the whole interrogation thing right there on the spot.

From there I went straight to the parking lot at FED and slept in the car till 2...

Better safe than sorry.

It was already 11 when I left the arena and I knew if I went to the house it was over.

Weekend was Unc Sammy's and I though I was ahead of the game.

Packed and I already had my money from the week in the account so off I went...

Was gonna get a room down there and cut down on driving and sleep depravation.

Because everyone in the Bonner fam was off and at home the whole weekend!

I wasn't gonna got through the craziness of "waiting my place in line".

But as usual the CO and 1st SGT changed the training at the last minuet like they always do and I had to drive back.

Soon as I got in ol Josephine had another"crisis" so I spent all night fixing it because if its important to her then drop everything else and fix it!

Sunday I went and saw Ultraviolet and watch the 3-6 mafia win an Oscar...

I guess his neighbors from back in the day feel stupid now always complaining about his noise at his house... 

Sunday...

Well here I sit again, my sis is behind me on her phone with in her neck.

The others I work with are starting to wonder if they are planning to do some changes.

But Scott has been moving me around for about a week now...and with the classes he has been in and out of sumthins up.

The TSA (Homeland Security Firm) sent me another notice for a screening, hasn't been 6 months, been more like 3.

I should get another chance to do a screening.

Plus I am going to class for Armed Security...and conceled weapons.

My mother and aunt are teaming up for my Grandparents' 50th Anniversary...

...I can't wait till she sees my suit I picked out.

Just found out that ol B is going thru another crisis, his ladyfriend is starting to trip on him about that "C" word.

So u know what he's gonna do...

Ahh April can't get here soon enough!

I really don't think I will hear from my babygirl for a year or two and I am sticking to my vow.

Never to allow myself to end up waiting for happiness again.

She slow I'm out...

All week I bent buying up the CD's that OX never mailed me like he said he was, plus I picked up Domino and Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band.

Sat and laugh at ol Steve Martin and the Bee Gees.

Just reminded me at how old I really am...

I also now have ALL RESIDENT EVIL GAMES for Game Cube!!!

I found RE2 this week so It's on now!!!

Saturday I finally got out and checked out Club Senses here in Memphis.

It was pretty good up to the point when Mike started tryin to dance with every decent looking woman on the dance floor in an attempt to "bring me out of my shell".

Yeah the founder of the LDG needs some help with the club scene.

Even so he was amusing, reminded me of my boy Rich Rios aka RE RE.

O went with me, and he was surprized at the amount of nice looking women there were in the club.

Memphis nightlife is just like nightlife anywhere else, the only way u know it is out there is to get out there.

 

 

A week of pefection...

Work went so smooth no matter what I did I was great at it.

Friday had my pay in my account...yessir my direct deposit hit so now no waiting for them to decide to bring us our check on saturday...mine hits friday morning!!

There was ice all over memphis on Saturday so no going out, I stayed in...

So at first u dont suceed...

Going out of my mind...

Putting off the trip, due to the brain damage of my family.

I'm calling the opereation...Solitude and Sainity

Because if I dont get a place of my own I will lose my sanity...

About My babygirl, I'm listening to my instincts; telling me not to persue any further.

Remain as an outside friend due to the fate of things.

Yep, the curse again...doomed to be alone in this world I think. I'm use to it.

Another smooth week of work, till the weekend as usual!

It finally snows friday night and boy did it come hard.

The streets were covered in it, Kids were outside celebrating, throwing snow at each other and enjoying it...

Meanwhile the parents and so called grown folk of Memphis were in a panic.

Every Idiot in the city went to stocking up on groceries,talking about not going to work next week.

All over the news...yep, just that serious, they even started closing schools and canceling events for the weekend.

And then the driving was horrible, no one slowed down...you would think it was the middle of July the way they sped around.

After arguing the point with my mother I laid it down and got ready for my saturday morning slave shift.

Let me set this tale up for u...its a good one...

Imagine me sleeping, keep it clean!

Now my mother wakes me up and hands me the phone in the dark,"it's for u" is all she says.

Voice on phone: "Hey Jimmy it's Cantrell, u up"?

Not my Super but the Sort Manager who is over him!!!

OH SH**T was my next words, I'm grabbing shirts and holding the phone with my shoulder...now picture the white rabbit from A in Wonderland!!!

Thought I had overslept and missed work, when in fact he was calling me to tell me that the shift was getting moved back to saturday afternoon after 3pm.

Now I'm awake, and it's only ten at night, great...

So out to my car I go to make sure ol Jack Frost didn't hook me up.

It's Raining...the snow is gone and it's raining!

Too warm for snow to stick but just cold enough to wear a light Jacket...

I have friends in germany who would give their soul to be in this type of weather right now.

All that comotion...school cancelizations, Events got shut down and clubs lost money.

All because of six hours of snow...MOTHER NATURE...WHATs THE BUSINESS GIRL!!!

Shortened my weekend but the good news was the whole shift showed up!!!

Even old whining Mike was one time...I thought Scott was going to cry!

Didn't get off till 9pm...some weekend.

Sunday night I went off with O to the local wrestling match, it was out of control.

I was trippin the whole time, the first match the bottom rope snapped and was laying on the wrestling mat.

They did two matches like that...

Then the commentators...all three were drunk!

Drinks sitting on the table in front of them, when it was time for the bell one of them would hit the microphone one the tabletop.

But I enjoyed it...