I have returned from the wilderness...

Two weeks in Ft. Chaffee,  Arkansas.

Ten Pounds lighter, three minuets faster...

As usual I ran sh*t. My squad leader ducked out and the other team leader did too.

So I got stuck runnin a little 5 man squad, and it seemed like every taked called for us to do it.

Everything...I swear I thought I was done with being the "dependable one" in germany.  And once again I ended up teaching...four different classes!

There isn't a person who doesn't know my face in the unit now.

That was the highlight, now for the bullsh*t...

The 1st Sgt went mad out there, the CO right behind him. They just left us at the mercy of the Battalion. We were the first there and the last to leave. Then the bad news, the commander annouced that he would be staying in command the duration of our time on orders.

A dark cloud settled in and it began to rain, it was like an "anime" scene, u know the ones when the villian has the good guy right where he wants them and then tells about that special person he killed and the good guy didn't know about it?

The desert will be interesting...

I was worried about my finances, I got a letter in the mail from the IRS. It seems that the 2,000 I owe them was straightened out.

I'm paid up on everything accept for Capital and Sears...

On orders in September, and I have to move to Forrest City in October.

In the passing weeks I have taken such small steps...

As I promised, preparing for my trip back to the desert early, not waiting till the last minuet like I did I germany.

No excuses this time...

Im counting hours this week for Fed Ex because the last check was $200!

It looks like Lisa is cutting into my hours. I worked the same amount of time before and after the sort as I always did.

I don't wanna cause a scene. But if I don't say something she'll do it to the wrong person and they will. S*it like that gets managers fired.

And we know the supe's she answer too are cutthroats.

Jason takes vacation from the theater this week. We had a meeting on this...

but the bad seed is growning a plan.

I gotta go and do "another class" in arkansas friday afternoon, and by the time I drive back it would of left the bad seed working alone on friday night.

We all know most movies premere on friday and everyone goes on that and saturday night.

He'll cry about it...he always does.

Some people if u are not careful will make u question if fightin for Unc Sammie is worth it. 

Update...

The unit gave us more information. It seems that we will be doing convoy ops in the desert next year.

A task I know a lot about...

We volunteered for those kinds of operations when I was in double deuce. Love it.

It was the only way we could get decent DVDs and food....

So my mind is a little at ease, but its for 9 months minimum in country, not as much money to be made as I thought.

Extention when we get there is always a big issue.

Things are finally falling into place, I also have another class on some "new" equipment for this upcomming Annual Training.

Yep, more time keeping ol Fields up and at em' in the classroom environment.

I need a couple of development clases before we go...f*ck FED Ex!

It seems that my paychecks are getting smaller and smaller anyway.

I have bonded with ol' airborne since my promotion. the cat has a lot of knowlege under his hat, plus he has a certain respect for me. I would of loved to have real NCO's like him backing me at the time of my departure from the regular army.

As for my vacation...well I spent most of it playing Resident Evil 4 and reading old manuals, getting in shape, and spending time with my mother and surprisingly my brother.

Annie wrote me on myspace, she's staying in germany with the trip to VA every once in a while. I just want her to focus on being a great mother to her son and put everything else second.

Fed Ex...

They're up to something.

Jason is now training two new people in his loads...

Im wondering why, and the answers arent looking too good for him.

Then there's Nina...

Who they also are trying hard to train new workers in her loads as well...

Promotion for Nina?

I was worried but now Im not. I just have to watch my step up until I come down on orders. Then there's nothing they can do to me...Untouchable!

Won't be job hunting when I get back if I play my cards right.

Plus ...a bigger resume!

The month of may...

Still in Memphis, something happened with the "Texas" orders so here in Memphis I sit.

Fed Ex is now becoming harder and harder to work for...

I'm STILL loading the same f*cking trucks!

Fustration is setting in, and it is obvious that they have no intent on getting me out of them.

Again, just like every job I work at I'm too reliable.

Is it suppose to be a punishment to do things like, be on time, give 100%, when asked about how to make the job better have positive input...

...and my favorite, smile and not act like its the end of the human existence.

After all the smoke cleared I got to take some vacation time, but even now they plot a way outta that.

TSA, I finally took the test, and here it is a week later and I'm still waiting for a call.

Total let down, I was hoping to get a responce from them.

So here I sit, dreading another week loading those same trucks that I was so proud of finally getting the hang of loading this time a year past...

I got out the house a weekend ago, it was a gift to myself...hell I didn't even drive.

Club Senses had a good crowd, and u know me blend in and get my drink on.

Nope, no lady chasing. I'm fed up with the "typical" male role.

I no longer see being alone as a curse...

January 2008...

It's what the news says, it was what we were breifed.

Am I worried? Nope...should I be?

Everyone in the fam and friends are worried enough for me for decades.

So it's off to Texas next month if everything goes right.

Unc Sammy still want me, I'll be gettin paid like when I was a 2-2 lackey.

I know it won't be anywhere as easy as the first time. different group...basically all still kids.

Which means I haveta be on my P's and Q's.

Like I always am...

Proballly won't get back to germany, too old for that sh*t anyway.

here it is again...

I knew there was going to be a catch, me making all that money from income tax...

I now owe $2,000 of it back.

I know right, it amazes me I go all these years without having to pay back anything and then all of a sudden I get back to memphis , outta the regular army and bam!

So it's offical, I am now back where I began before Xmas...

owing everybody and getting nothing.

Lesson learned...again. Go to a legal office on a military post, not a tax office in the city.

Stick to the script.  At least if they mess it up I can act a motherf*ckin fool, and they can tell me what happened with it.

 LDG yeah! got contact with everyone cept Dante...

Annie's good, Kenny's good, Katie's sain...who else ah, my new lady Nadine.

I spent almost a year trying to figure her out and now she wants me...but it's gonna be hard..

Im in M-Town and she's in germany.  And with my bill situation...no fly no time soon for me.

I know long distance is bad...but it can't be any worst than finding someone here. Just as stressful if u ask me.

But as long as she's in the fight so am I!

This be that bulls*it I be talking about...

My mother filed bankrupcy. And she is still buying sh*t online

It affects me most of all and I dont even live there. My sis is still recovering from the breakdown, and Craig is slowly becoming like everybody else...

Nice car in the yard of his Mom's house.

And to complicate things, Fed Ex is running me around about being a floater. A guy got fired for stealing. Of all thing that! I mean we all know that there are like 100 and 1 ways the "masters" of pachage shipping can catch you stealing. Its the one thing they excel at. Pass working the sh*t outta me of course. Im in his load now. My manager thinks he's slick too, he won't let me know when the next promotion is, but he wants Lisa and Conrad to fill our files with these rediculous write ups.

The theater, we now have digital screen projectors. For u the customer it means u now get to enjoy commercials and all those trivia slids before u watch ur movie. For me, it means no choice but to run around the theater like a chicken with his head gone starting movies on time. I think Im gonna be moving up at that job as well, ol Jason is into conflict with Joe. He is infatuated with the "easy" wrong over anything right now.

He has one more time to call me on a Drill weekend to work some hours for him and Im gonna split his soul into!

This drill was interesting...

Managed to curse out our new LT...right in front of the Sgt Major.

He said on giant step for SGT's in this unit.

I have returu ned...

Annie is missing...

Trouble with bills, I know I was just caught up.but as I feared sharing a phone plan with my mother and everyone has me in a bind. Then ol reliable needed some brake work done.

So gone is my vacation fund and now im strugglin again.

Social life suck too, its seems like all the cute ones taken, or live in arkansas And nadine is really a brezze and an ocean away.Finally get her and now ...I dont think she's really worth the trouble.

She's a single mother, her free time needs to be that free, not worried whether or not my a** can call her this week or not. That is why long term relationships work...the minds and faith of those involved.

My mind's fine...

Melly sent me a message worried about Annie. I mean she's eight months pregnant and she was on a plane back to the states. Immagration got to her probally. She probally flew home illegally. Not her fault, she probally didn't know...The black rose is strong and she has thorns, She'll appear again.

I'm back...

slowly I made my way back from the last couple of months of turmoil.

I'm at home with my new Dell...thankx Rent-A-Center.

So here I sit watchin my Recorded smackdown from Friday.

Got an Emergency Gas card, so no more last 10in the tank.

Working on my move outta the load position, but as usual management and supevisors...excuse after excuse. And we know Im not that good

My sis is on the road to recovery she worked a whole week's schedual. And we talked the other night.But my father is back in memphis. I dont want to but I'm going to have to seek him out and confront him. The doctor told me and my mother that one of the reasons she went into depression was because he had been calling and harrassing her...questions about my mothers life, how much money me and my bro are pulling down.

Sometimes fam can bring u down worst than any enemy...

My aunt has my two cousins lookin for him now. Time to show him I'm not as under my mother as he thinks I am.

sitin at the mother's computer writing...

The Rent at my place is now at $120 a week as a result of the situation with my sis last month. I thought it would be easier if I did it weekly to have extra money by the end of the month...

...I was wrong on that! To add on to that remember all the calls to germany, wishing the League and other significant people merry xmas and happy new year. Well I was asking every month abotu any long distance showing up on the phone bill. Every month the parental unit was telling me nothing. To start the new year three months of long distance is now in my name...totaling up to about $500.

I used this weekend to take a break from working (they changed the drill dates on me again). But this time I remembered to call first  rather than leaving it all up to chance and gettin on the road. My finances would not have handled the strain anyway.

So I'll be well rested for combat against the grain next week!

I added this to my myspace blog but not everyone has my addy so...

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

Some places still act like the South shoulda won... Current mood: disappointed This is what is going on at a lot of institutions all over the US... Oh and by the way this is my Uncle, and he's serious!!!       MIT professor vows hunger strike over tenure.  Says racism was behind denial   By Marcella Bombardieri, Globe Staff  |     December 23, 2006 An MIT professor says he will go on a hunger strike if the university does not quickly acknowledge that he was denied tenure because of racism.   James L. Sherley, a 48-year-old stem cell scientist  who is African-American, has spent nearly two years asking senior administrators at the Massachusetts Institute of Technology to overturn his department head's decision not to put him forward for tenure.   He said provost L. Rafael Reif told him Monday that the decision would stand. "I  will either see the provost resign and my hard-earned tenure granted at MIT, or I will die defiantly right outside his office," Sherley wrote in a letter he has circulated widely among the MIT faculty this week. "This is the strength of my conviction that racism in [America] must end. What better place to kill a small part of it than at a great institution like MIT."   Sherley asked his colleagues to call for Reif's resignation. If MIT fails to take action, he said, he will begin his hunger strike outside Reif's office on Feb. 5.   MIT provided a statement saying it cannot comment on tenure decisions. "MIT has a well-established procedure for reviewing and granting tenure to faculty," the statement said. "This process is thorough and extensive, and we are confident it was followed with integrity in this case." Sherley is known for controversial theories about stem cells. He works with adult stem cells and opposes research using human embryonic stem cells because he believes it amounts to taking human life. In September, he won a prestigious Pioneer Award from the National Institutes of Health, a $2.5 million grant for scientists taking innovative approaches to biomedical problems.   MIT grants tenure to less than half of its junior professors. The university has struggled to recruit non-Asian minority professors, who are scarce in most science and engineering programs. In an interview, Sherley said that colleagues have told him on several occasions that particular actions by MIT professors and administrators were based on racist attitudes.   In his letter, Sherley accused the former MIT provost, Robert A. Brown, who is now president of Boston University, of making a racist remark that was reported to him by a colleague. A spokesman for Brown said the charges are completely untrue. Sherley said that he has been approached about other job opportunities, but that leaving MIT would not force the university to acknowledge racism.   "I'm not doing this because I can't bear not to get tenure at MIT," he said. "The things that have happened are racism. I've lived  with this for 48 years, and I just have to do something about it."     WOOGIE BOOGIE!!!!