Ongoing fight...

I have come to realize how come people have issues in life.

The easy wrong over the hard right.

They don't feel the need to work or anything and if u do ur alienated. It's a way of life now, at least for them. Mouse is looking for a free ride. Woodchuck is constantly talking applications for sausage factory workers...

Read between the lines.

My B Buddy Sgt. J, has me worried. Wait. No. Scratch that, he has a plan and he's making them as they go. On the fly, easy wrong. He's not listening but what do I expect, I know I'm not the key canadate for advise. I hope he starts listening to someone...

Another mission done....

Its an ongoing thing. One after the next and the next.  I still share distrust for my supposed comrades.

Two of them even tried to get over on me.  Its getting to where they are learning exactly which buttons to push with me.

It should be easier than this, I've danced this dance time and time again. Same music.

But the other dancers seem to have two left feet.

Well Mouse ended her secret lovers fling with J finally. She says she's found her soulmate....

It looks like she finally is calming down. But Nicky is really starting to act differently .  Lot of Family problems at home. And then I went and umm...I dont think the advice I give is all she needs. Mother just took 4,000 to fix stuff on the house.  Thats the only thing going good about this deployment right now.

Jason and Jamie are going through hard times, wish I do more for them. But they are hard to get in touch with. I'm working on keeping in touch but these missions are the root of a lot of stress.

the desert world...

I really am not happy with the performance of the Unit I'm in.

They really have issues with people's personal business. I'm trying to set an example by not getting involed with their gossip. But its hard when the gossip is about u.

I stay as far away from it as possible, but subborn, shallow people tie their own conclusions about ur personal.

All a ploy because they thing ur doing the same that they are.  Cant get into details but if u know me its pretty easy to figure it out.

Im losin my mind here because of the lack of freetime I have here then my C. Card isn't working so I cant order anything...

Take my anime and my RPGs whats left!

Mission after mission.

We are running full steam since we got to Iraq.  Won't go into details on what we're doin, but my command has figured out a way to make it twice as hard than it needs to be.

But they took and put the wildest three soliders together for the deployment...

And they are all female. lol! They are gonne kill each other before we get done. We got the net in the rooms and its pretty fast.  Phones are still a problem though, but Im glad in a way. Now I get my guys to get some work done. Plus it  cuts down the rumor thing we have a problem with.

Twice as much work here than in mississippi, and no one is listening to the experts of the game...

Makes my head hurt.

Ignorance.

What I’m dealing with on a daily basis right now.

A lot of targeting of soldiers…

…and we know how I am about that.

We’re done with the bullsh*t and finally have a meaning in the Army.

But the cost is way more than I calculated.

The morale goes up and down and I feel like I’m caught in the middle. The internet is so limited here I have to save my Logs on my computer until I get the chance to get to a better connection site.

Here I sit on a military cot and watch this company slowly destroy itself from the inside out.

My instincts are buzzing like spider sense.

The first chance of a move to a better environment I’m probally gonna take it.

I don’t have to worry about my funds and getting to them, it appears that the military has made it even easier.

Now as far as a social life out here, the 400’s have made it impossible!

We even have a 9:45 PM curfew, lights out at ten…

…even my mother let me stay up later than that when I was in elementary school.

No interaction whatsoever with the female population. It’s finally gotten to the point where keeping to myself is safer anyway.

Update…everybody knows, even after countless man hours I spent talking to the both of the parties’ involved they had relations.

J got a hold of Mouse in Mississippi. The whole unit know about it so u know its only a matter of time before his wifey finds out.

I got my a** chewed and the comment was made, “I  wish u  would go ahead and f*ck her and get it over with so u can do ur Job!!!”.

So my attempts at hiding my feelings for Mouse have also been in vain. And just when I was about to go on bended knee and ask for forgiveness for being an idiot…

…the JPG pics of Mouse without her uniform (read between the lines) were shown to me so I, once again, am the “nice guy” while the “wrong guy” gets the prize.

I think I should of took advantage of the “hotel” situation…IM JOKING!!!

Easter.

My time online is short so I have to be breif.

Finally...the grifter has come back to Kuwait.

Sh*t has definately changed here, but I can't get into details. Still trying to win the respect of Biggots and Idiots thought. It's worse than it was for me in 2-2, I can't trush a motherf*cker right now.

More "double tap" training, and operation lockdown is in effect because even my command and NCO Corps are getting lazy

We do good things in the field but when we get back to the base is when the issues start.

Now on a lighter note...

Just when I thought me and Mouse were moving to something closer she shut doors.

Ok, it was partialy my fault. I did take a little advantage of a situation a couple of weeks ago. Now I probally fu*ked off a cool ladyfriend because I had a hormone issue...

Yep, even I lose focus sometimes...

I have it figured out...

I'm supposed to be a soldier. because I'm doing it so well to the point where the others with the rank of sergent aren't doin s*it and I'm the one working the late hours...

THE CURSE OF THE RESPONCIBLE ONE!!!

Don't feel too bad I'm used to it now...

Some things never change, as soon as they can everyone runs for the door and the lowest ranking (privates) get forgotten about.

I kept Jackson in my team, except now her name is Cunningham. The controversy flies, and it has a lot to do with the Platoon SGT. Lets just say he tried to be a good guy. I want to give him the benefit of the doubt, but it seems like ever since we recieved females in the company there has been issues. I wasn't even this bad in the Regular Army.

The thing that also is f*cked is that I met this one female and she seems to be close to what it is I'm looking for social wise. I know she's reading the signs but the whole company is just like a bunch of gossiping old people! So now I'm stuck, do I go and get at her under the radar and hope it stays there or sit back and watch another...as B-Icee would put it "potential teammember" get away...

The desert will be sooo intresting!

I now reside I arkansas.

Preparing for the desert...Sucks to be me right? I'm living with Cpl. Austin, the Platoon barber. We hit it off like Blade and Whistler (all the other tag team heroes get used too much).

Having the Brinkley Unit with us, ooooohh man...

Already my patience has been tested. But the good thing is I have a Team again.

The Ft. Chaffee wrap-up.

Well, another interesting trip wrapped up. The highlight of the trip was Charlton.

Got fed up, threatened to kill the Platoon Sgt. and then went and jumped fences and run through bushes like he was on "Prison Break". Before his darring escape I sat him down and talked to him, I "almost" had him calmed down then i got told by the "more experienced" SGTs to stay out of it.  They were the reason he was talking about running off!

The female soliders linked up with us in Ft. Chaffee. They all have certain things that make them unique. Spc. Donaho, Married. Her husband is also in the unit...

The first thing he does is go tell everyone, "...if I catch u looking and sayin sh*t about my wife I'll kill you". But she's suprizingly motivated. She comes to me at least twice a day looking for something to do, always with the same reason, "I need to keep busy, I'm bored easily". So I comply, half the time because I'm busy myself.

Then there's Spc. Jackson...Tara Jackson.

A mother of three, also very motivated. She shot better on the heavy machine gun than some of the male privates!  We went to the dental clinic in Lil Rock.  It took her all of 5 mins to piss off EVERYONE in the place.  Not Intentionally, it was her body language, "Beyonce syndrome".  She needs teeth filled and pulled and if u don't speak up and say something they WILL try to do everything at the same time. The receptionist/dental assist. had to stop dealing with her and take a break. I stepped in before it got too heated.

Traveled back to Memphis. It was wild, I went into a bar (Huey's) on a saturday night. It's no one in there. I think it had to do a lot with the smoking outside rule that started on the 1st (October). Then it was off to Senses. Where they still let u smoke inside, but as soon as I lit my Black and Mild the bartender tells me that I have to smoke "the Cigar" outside! So I can smoke a chemical filled cigarette,  but no cigarrillo(black and mild) which is pure tobacco. It's been a long time since I wanted to pore a drink on someone...

They they wonder why the new spot in Memphis has become the strip club.

I did it...

I left Fed Ex Ground, yeah bills have been tight since but more rest and free time is good. It wouldn't have happened if they would just cooperate with me on my schedual. It's September. and that ment I would be back and forth doing Military classes and things for the unit in preparation for IRAQ!!!

But the day I told them of my departure, they went into the motions of trying to get rid of me...

Am I surprized, nope.

And the funny thing was I haven't been on FED "benefits" for almost three months. I let them go because Unc Sammy was going to pick up the medical tab. Jason at the theater is all but supportive though. He told me to take any time I need. Odd but straight.

Now for the bad news...

My first class, WLC a class I need to keep my SGT rank. I was supposed to be there yesterday, but my Taraus of 5 years had transmisson issues. Leaving fluid all over the interstate. So I was left with the decision...

Get my car fixed immediatly or leave it for two weeks (the length of WLC). Now... before u call me an Idiot remember this car is my soul means of transportation. And would have to be fixed once I returned. Plus, I would have to find another way to and from work until then. Then there is the "money" issue, getting it fixed would be cheaper if I got on it right away.

So my car is repaired, my SGT rank forfeit.

It pisses me of in a way. Almost everytime I have had to do a school for the Guard. I drove my car! Whereas when I was in the Active ranks the UNIT provided tranportation!

...ending note, still no girlfriend.

A long time since I've written...

I wonder if anyone even reads this.

Annie used to, then she got back to germany. As if I was surprized at the fact she would disappear. Makes me wonder if she was a friend or just needed someone to listen to her in her time of Imprisonment.

Well she's free now, and probally wrapped herself into a new web of friends...

Well. The unit I'm in figured out a way to piss off everyone again.

All the work done at Ft. Chaffee, all the classes I taught. Were just busy work because they lost all the paperwork showing that we did the classes. No paperwork no proof.

So last drill we spent redoing all the classes. So I taught a refresher course. And ended up in a heated debate with a Staff SGT from Maryland.

He figures me for just another guardsman, and because he knew I was new to the unit...

S*it, I was wearing BDU's when he was working at the town grocery store sacking old ladies' groceries!

He was being quite rude and disrespectful...

So I told him don't take it out on my because ur boss set u down to "back wood" arkansas because Battalion can't keep up with a couple of pieces of paper.

I recommended he go relax under a tree and calm his nerves, he went straight to the 1ST SGT.

Then he never came back...

The others told me that he went over and told the commander that I shouldn't even be a NCO. They then told him my "history". Later that day he appologized. But then as soon as the others started to give their class he dogged on them as well.

Two faced...

Enough of that...just waiting for orders, school in september.

Barely had enough to pay rent this week. FED is killing me.

The hours are getting thinner and thinner, but the amount of work they want is more and more.

They hire these people based on...hell I don't even know anymore. They have these two, they are the first to leave every day. dosen't matter if they came in late or didn't even finish the task they were given.

So that adds more work for the others.

I want to begin the job hunt so bad, but I have to know for sure whether or not we fly in January.

B-Icee just hit Afghani...my boy Chille is in Iraq, and I haven't heard anything from Hova.

I've given up. I guess I'll just remember the good time and leave it at that.